Blake Mist

Blake Mist is a fictional character who lives inside my head helping me make decisions in my life.  Most people say it’s an alter-ego, I think it’s another person stuck in my body. Sometimes he will  control my actions and thoughts. 

The name came from my middle name, Blake, but my real name is Rithty. Blake is the name that I want everyone to call me by. I think my first name is ridiculous and leaves off an weird impression of me. Created from nothing, late night, sleepless nights, high on clouds, crying to sleep, I talk to myself about my problems in life, I tried to contact real people to help solve them but I feel like they wouldn’t understand. But when I’m alone, I talk to myself. As I do, I would hear something giving me answers. Either quietly in my head, or loud as if it was in the distance. 

I’m not saying all of Blake’s answers are the most best possible solutions. Sometimes I really regret even listening to him. But it’s really hard when all your life you had no one to rely on other than the make believe being in my mind. Sometimes he tells me he feels trapped. Sometimes he stays quite, like he’s not even there. Then that’s the only time where I get to talk and act on my own. You can tell the difference. I’m quite and not really motivated or exciting. More like a drone.  But when I’m him, I feel important, everyone wants a piece of me. But they want what’s not me.

In the few songs that I write about, and perform, it’s always either an argument or an opinion from both sides. Blake and mines.  I took the name Blake and added Mist. Thus, BlakeMist is created. I’m very fascinated by empty space and mythical things, and mist can form into a lot of things and dissolve.  So can Blake. He could be anything or nothing. Whatever he wants, people will still like him.

I just want people to like me for being me, not whoever this person is making me become. I’m not forgetting who I am,  just lost in with path is right.